I remember the never-ending battle between the constant push towards light and the pull towards darkness that defined my experience during the pandemic. Some days were filled with inspiration, the light seeping in and brightening my perspective, while others were dull and disheartening in its absence. I lived through these extremes, embracing each moment, and something truly remarkable emerged from this turmoil: I befriended myself. For the first time in a long while, I felt truly at home in my own skin. The void of darkness within me began to shrink, and I felt a sense of belonging.

Day after day, oscillating between being actively engaged and joyfully active or introspectively passive and sad, the isolation of the lockdown seeped through every facet of my life. This constant fluctuation made me confront my own depths and vulnerabilities, ultimately leading to a newfound self-awareness and acceptance. The struggle between light and darkness became a journey of self-discovery, helping me find a place where I could genuinely connect with myself and feel at peace.

YOU NEVER GET THERE AND YOU NEVER STAY HERE!